I have submitted all major papers so far, and now, only a statistics exam and my dissertation project stand between me and my master’s degree. I usually do not do well in these times of transition. At the end of high school and at the end of undergraduate studies, I was mentally fatigued and withdrawn. I begin each undertaking the same: high academic performance and unbridled enthusiasm for social and leadership activities. Then, as the end comes into sight, I become removed from the present with one foot in and one foot out the door, looking at the ‘next steps’ and exhaustedly wishing to just finish. When it all ends, I regret that I was simply going through the motions and not performing at my best or being engaged with the community around me.
Summer beckons and I miss family and friends back home, even though I met some great people here as well. Yesterday, I received some unfortunate personal news, and felt those encroaching feelings of melancholy and resignation. Yet, I am determined this time to not repeat past patterns.
I’ve had many opportunities this past year to exercise mental fortitude. For a moment it seemed that I overworked my will muscle and I was ready to submit to despondence. However, I am unwilling to meet those feelings of regret and do not want to wish I ended things differently. It is time again to flex my will muscle and to approach the tasks before me with the same enthusiasm I had in the beginning.
I’m wishing luck and goodwill to all who need it during these busy and trying times. Keep the faith! When the road is long, there’s no way to go but on 🙂